Running Journal 6/9/09

Today's run was one of those runs that make me think.. WTF? Why am I doing this? Why am I pushing myself so hard? Today I let my fears and self doubt creep in. Why am I doing this?? The answer; I have to! For some inexplicable reason, my very soul needs this upcoming race. I don't want to sound fanatical or anything, but it is true. I do not know what lies beyond this month in running, but right now, it is so important to me, and I want it so bad, I can taste it. I feel like I need to run because I'm 31. LOL Is that weird? Of course it is! Even I do not understand it. I guess I have decided that this is the year of my awakening. This is my year of triumph. 30 was good, but 31 should be better. It is better.